Oh my goodness!

I can't believe how long it's been since I have updated Eli's blog!  Sorry about that.  Time is slipping away from me. 

Eli is doing OK.  He had his 15 month appointment last week, and then got really sick afterwards with a double ear infection and cold.  Yesterday was the first day he seemed almost back to normal.  Just still really tired.  I hate it when he is sick because I feel so bad for him.  But at the same time I LOVE how cuddly he gets, which is not normal for him.  But we got lots of snuggles and hugs last week that's for sure.  His appointment went well, the Doctor thought he was doing fine.  Despite all of my concerns. 

Eli's eyes are doing OK.  They have continued to cross a bit.  Not as bad as before, but, especially when he is tired, they turn in some.  It's been frustrating for me, but I am trying hard to not let it bother me.  It doesn't seem to bother him any, which is good.  We have a follow up with the eye doctor on June 5th so it will be interesting to see what the next step will be. 

We are still working weekly with the occupational therapist.  Eli seems to be doing better eating solid foods and surprises me daily with the things he can chew up and swallow without choking or gagging now.  I have definitely seen some progress there, which makes me happy.  I think having all four molars have helped some.  he doesn't have eye teeth or canines, just four front teeth and 4 molars.  I guess that's all he needs!!  He still has a really hard time with sippy cups.  He can't hold them up to his mouth and tilt his head back.  And when he does have the cup in a good angle to drink it seems to be too fast for him and he chokes.  All in all it is never a good experience for him and he usually just throws the cup away from him and screams when I bring it close to him.  I worry that he is not getting enough liquids.  I have bought a bunch of different types to see if any work better for him, but there is only one that he seems to like enough to drink out of.  I even tried to buy a few more of the same, but the company had changed them a bit and he HATES the new ones!  It's so lame. 

Eli has also made a bit more progress on crawling.  He can crawl about 3 feet and then sits back up and plays with whatever is around him (or just sits there if nothing is around him).  If I try to make him keep going he just gets mad at me.  But at least we are making slow but sure progress.  This last sick week set him back some, but I am hoping to continue making progress from here on out.  I feel like two weeks ago the mobility thing finally just clicked for him.  One day I was fighting against him so hard to get him in the crawl position and then the next day he just seemed to get it and seemed almost excited to be in a position to move.  Then the next day after that he even started moving his legs on his own.  It was so exciting I almost started crying!!  Eli thought I was crazy, I was cheering so loudly.  He still walks around like crazy holding on to our hands.  It is really the ONLY thing that makes him happy.  We get the biggest smiles and babbles out of him when he is walking.  I just wish he would figure out how to MOVE!!!

Also, for those of you who are wondering I did decide to quit my Shoreline job.  It was a really really hard decision for me.  Probably one of the hardest decisions of my life.  But Ryan and I both felt that God was saying that that wasn't the job for me anymore.  So finally last week, after months and months of thinking about it, and worrying about it, I finally sent off the e-mail to my boss and the HR person.  I had written the letter like 2 weeks before that, and it was just sitting in my drafts box for weeks waiting for me to be brave enough to send it.  Finally I was getting a massage and couldn't relax because of it and thought, this is stupid when I get home I am just doing it!  So I did!!!  It felt really good, but also really really scary too.  I feel like I cut my one safety net that I had.  But I am trying to focus on God and trust him with everything.  He is in control even if it doesn't make any sense to me.  So please keep praying with us that everything will work out!!!